Final thoughts before I start a new chapter in my mission.

Today is the day. I went through 4 years to get here. I have my cap and gown. I have the hair made. I have when and where memorized. It's finally here. I'm graduating tonight. And my god, what a year it's been. I was looking back at my old posts in my mission to change. And I have truly changed. With that being said, I wanted to put a few of my thoughts down for my readers.

1. I'm SO much stronger then I was at the beginning of the year. I was sad all the time and didn't believe I had any self worth. I was the fat girl in my advanced choir. I was the odd one out. I was type casted. I am NOW so much stronger and so much wiser. I've talked to people I wouldn't normally talk to. This blog helped me put myself out there and be heard. No one knew who I was underneath, and now they do and now I am not afraid to share.

2. I have become a better person. I've inspired people! That is something I never would have thought I could do. I have people calling me their hero because not many people can write down everything they think and feel for the whole world to read. The most stunning and popular girls at school tell me I'm beautiful and that they look up to me! Just knowing that I'm making a difference, not only to myself, but to others is the most amazing feeling.

3. I'm no longer afraid of the future. I was scared out of my mind thinking I had to move on from that comfortable spot of being in the background the whole time. Now, I crave spotlight and attention and expressing myself. I'm not afraid of what the world and college have to offer me anymore.

4. I'm more confident in myself. I always saw the stunning thin popular girls walking through the halls everyday and I wanted to be one SO badly. I wanted to be seen as beautiful to other people. I couldn't believe that anyone found me remotely attractive. Now, I do feel beautiful. I feel different in clothes. I feel different when people look at me. I'M GETTING HIT ON IN TARGET!! I never thought this would be me! I used to be afraid to go to the gym because people would have to look at my fat ugly body, now I don't give a crap because going helped me lose 50 pounds!

5. And lastly. My final thought is I don't know what I will do next year without high school. I'm in LOVE with high school and it's breaking up with me. My best friends. My hobbies. All my laughter and smiles come from school. And tonight, it hands be a letter saying you've moved on. I will never see most of these people again. They will never see me again. We will move on to bigger things. I will never see him again..
I will miss it so much.

High school and the people in it changed me. There is one thing I love more then high school. I'm a new Alexa and I'm madly in love with her. I've never once been happy about who I am. Now, I look in the mirror and I finally don't want to look away. I'm finally happy.
And I have high school, friends, family, the gym, and so much more to thank!
I've finally gotten there.

HOWEVER! It doesn't stop here. My mission is still going and I'm going to lose more weight this summer and a whole new chapter of my life, and of my mission to change is beginning.
BRING IT ON WORLD! I'm a new Alexa Loren Starky.

-Alexa Starky.

End of chapter 1 of my new life. End of chapter one of my mission to change.