I'm finally at that place.

I only have a week and a half left of high school.
I feel like I've finally hit that place. The place where I'm at peace with myself.
The place where I feel more comfortable. The place where I can be myself, and like it. I have never, and I mean NEVER, been at that place in my whole life.

I've always hated myself because I felt like I failed myself. I felt like I let myself go. I let myself down.
I was bullied all my life. I was looked down upon. People told me in elementary school that I shook the bus. I was bullied, I was insecure, I didn't feel safe in myself. I know I'm not the only one who's ever felt that way. And I kept it hidden all my life. I didn't tell people I was sad or hurt. I didn't tell people that I hate who I sit next to in science because they make fun of my weight. I felt alone all my life. I was type casted all my life. I felt ugly until age 18.

I finally woke up. I went to a doctor to try and get surgery because I became desperate. I was so depressed and needed a way out. She told me to keep track of what I do and to work at losing weight before going under the knife. So I wrote a blog. I wrote my first entry of my mission to change. And that day, I became a new person.
I've lost almost 50 pounds, you guys. I'm so close.

I love going to the gym. I love treating myself well. I love hearing the feedback. I know I'm doing this for all the right reasons because I hear it from you guys and I hear it in myself. I'm not afraid of me anymore. I'm not afraid of speaking my mind and saying how I feel.
And I encourage everyone, all of my readers, to do the same. It changed me for the better. I've never felt happiness like this in my whole life. I've never loved myself like this.

And I have to thank my readers. From the bottom of my heart. I couldn't have done this without your motivation. I'd like to thank my family, for never giving up on me. For supporting me. And for always giving me advice.

Last but not least, I'd like to thank those who hurt me in the past. Those who bullied me and made me hurt. Because you made me SO incredibly strong. And I've learned.

Thank you. So much :)
Lets keep this mission going, shall we? :)

-Alexa Starky