I don't think I was prepared to take on the whole world yet.
The day I graduated, got a car, and went out into the real world, it all hit me like a ton of bricks with no warning. I had no idea what I was getting into.
My best friends are leaving.
I'm on my own with school.
I have to decide the rest of my life.
Gas and maintaining a car is expensive.
I need a job ASAP.
I need to pick classes.
I need to learn how to live...
It's all really scary, especially for someone who has only had losing weight on her mind for almost a year now. There is a lot to think of and a lot to decide and it's getting overwhelming.
I just hope it all gets easier. But it will take a lot of hard work and dedication. Not to mention TONS of therapy and trips to the gym. Which I'm going to 6 days a week now! Yay for that!
Hm, but another thought that's been on my mind. I need a summer romance.. I need that special feeling again. I miss it a lot. I love that I'm loving myself finally, but, can't someone else as well?.. I don't know, I guess that's what happens when I let myself out there through a blog. You want to let yourself out there in every other place, especially your heart. It's difficult and I wish I didn't feel this way. But, I am definitely that girl who listens to her heart, not her head.
Which can be really great, or not so much.
Lets just hope all the puzzle pieces of summer comes together soon.
-Alexa Starky
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