Just Being Honest.

Woke up this Sunday morning not feeling like I usually did this week.
Woke up to a messy room, a headache, and feeling really unsuccessful.

Yesterday, I spent all day at regional honor choir auditions. I had no expectations to make it, and of course, I didn't. But all of my close and best friends did, and a HUGE congrats to them. That really is amazing. I just wish I had gotten that call saying I made it too. I don't know if it is just greed, or feeling like they are all better than me, I don't know. Maybe it is just my own paranoia. I just know that it's going to be a weird 3 weeks, and I'm afraid I'm going to be left out.
Just being honest..

I also can't help but think about this year, and where it has put me.
I can't believe how much has changed in less than a year. It's so weird! I mean, this last summer I was friends with different people, I didn't know half the people I hang with now, I was in love, I just don't know where it went, it went away so fast.
...Just being honest.

Maybe I'm just having an off morning..Idk.
I'm just going to try to enjoy my Sunday and head to the gym. Maybe clean my room, who knows.

-Alexa Starky