I need to get back to work. I need to get motivated. I need to work on myself. I need all of this and the only way I can, is by getting up and doing it!
I've been so sad and so stressed. People cannot keep me down. I'm 18 years old! I'm graduating! I'm becoming someone and no one can keep me in a funk. I'm tired of it. I'm president of my drama club! I want it to be amazing! I am in the top choir! I want to sing my heart out! I'm bigger, and I want that to change!
I need my motivation back.
I have the worlds best friends and I am so in love with what was given to me this year. I have learned so much, I have laughed so much, I should be enjoying every second.
Sometimes...it's impossible. It feels like nothing can get better. And my heart still hurts a lot. And it's hard to comprehend sometimes that things can get better..
But it can. And I need to just keep going. I need to keep my head held high and get back to work!
I need to change myself. I need to endure each moment.
It will be hard to do because there are still some black spots in my life and some scars that haven't healed. But the things that make me happy, block it. And I am going to get back on track with working out, eating better, feeling better, and seeing what works for me.
I need to keep up with the learning as I go. I need to start now.
-Alexa Starky
Alexa, I'm so glad that you have realized this. I am so proud to be one of those best friends, and cannot believe that I only have 4 more months of school with you. But you are growing up. It's weird to say because I am younger, but I can honestly see you changing into a wonderful, fun, beautiful, caring, and perfect friend.
ReplyDeleteWell there ya go Lexi! It doen't take you long to bounch right back into life!
ReplyDeleteI am SO proud of you and that you have the incredible ability to share your truest self with others through this blog. You not only have a wonderful means to get your feelings out, but you teach others about the ups and downs of life and that perseverence is the key to it all.
You never cease to amaze me with your insight, wit, humor, intelligence and sensitivity.
You are one freaking special woman!!!
I love you.
Mom
You are so inspiring!! You can do anything :)
ReplyDeleteI ditto Mom!! You inspire ME, your old auntie to work harder, take the reigns of my life too and get my butt back in gear! I love reading about you and your honesty and openness and the true you with the world. You are so precious and my love for you is emmense and endless!! You are truly an inspiration!!!
ReplyDeleteXOXOO
Neecie