Much better! Saw my therapist and took a BIG step.
There was a lot more good things to say, rather than bad. A lot more has been accomplished then lost. And it took me an hour of chit chat with a pro to realize this.
Ever since then, I've been much better. Some odd feelings still, but definitely not the same.
Been going to the gym and working out everyday. Eating better. Taking better care of myself. Being with the people who I love and love me back.
Smiling more, working harder. This is what it should be about.
And I think I'm finally content with where I am.
Sure, I will have a relapse now and then because it really is such a big change for me. But I'm looking forward to everything that's going to be happening within the next few weeks. A lot of school stuff and our spring musical is coming up. And I'm going to try really hard to get in and maybe get a good part? But who knows, and I'm ok with that.
I'm going to do what I'm supposed to do, be where I am supposed to be, and give 100% of what I have and make the next 13 some weeks of my high school career fabulous.
And I'm going to keep going to the gym, get better with eating, and do this and fix the flaws I've been dying to fix for a long, long time.
-Alexa Starky
Wow Alexa this is beautiful. The best part of reading your blog is that we get to watch you grow from the inside out......and you get more beautiful and more peaceful every day.
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Alexa remember. This process is an evolution..not a revolution. It reminds me of the arduous efforts butterflies make to become butterflies . You to are working so hard to become an Alexa butterfly. You will succeed! I send you lots and lots of hugs-willpower-hugs-stamina & more hugs. This journey is all about YOU--keep up the good work love to u Trudy
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