Woke up yet again feeling like the lowest thing on the food chain.
I mean, what is it? I have a great family, awesome friends, school is fun, I'm fine..
But there is something in there that just keeps eating inside and it's painful.
I feel like I did the right thing last night by letting something really important to me go.. I'm not getting into detail of what it was.
But I let it go. I gave it to someone else, and they are SO happy.
But I feel like crap knowing it's gone..
And it will never ever be mine.. It's that greed thing. But I know I'm not good enough for it yet. So I just gave it away.
Now I have to start from scratch.
Just want to go back to sleep. Or go to the gym or something. I don't know. I can't make up my mind because my one motivation isn't really there anymore...
Ugh.
-Alexa Starky
It is not that you are not "good enough" right now that you didn't get what you want but rather it is not the right thing for you at this time....
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