I'm Baaaack.

Well, that was interesting. I took almost a month away from writing.
There were a lot of tears. A lot of shop therapy. A lot of laughs. A lot of feelings.

I guess you can say I tore myself down to build myself up.

I did a lot of talking with my incredible mom about my life, feelings, desperation, and she helped me a lot.
One day I had just had enough of life and the way I felt, I almost just walked out of the house. I was at the door, and my mom just look at me and tried to stop me. It took a bit to get me away from the door and to stop crying.. It was definitely a rough month..

School was very stressful. A lot of working. And just not feeling good about myself.
But I'm focused and am trying to get back on the band wagon.

Because, I'm really tired of looking at myself and seeing something I don't want to see..

Also, I hate talking about this stuff, but, I did break up with my boyfriend.. I just needed to focus on me and I wasn't in it the way he deserved me to be.

I'm back in this, I'm going to keep going, try to lose 30 more pounds.

I'm happy to be writing again. I definitely miss it and it's a big part of my lifestyle now.

Thank you for always being here for me this past year and a half. It's one insane journey.
I love you all so much!

-Alexa Starky