The title means something today.
My friend called me bipolar today. And it got me thinking. I know he was just kidding with me. But, look at my blog. I figure it's just frustrating. I'm going through a lot especially with myself and losing the weight. I don't feel bipolar, there is just a lot. And I really hope that my observation there is right.
Also, I'm spontaneous. If you hadn't noticed already. I'm really spontaneous, especially now that I'm a bit more confident in myself. I'm writing to people I hardly know, trying to make friends, trying to put myself out there more. And that is something I've never done. I just figure I'm working so hard on myself and I'm changing so much, might as well not have any other regrets right? Disappointment may be in the future, but, I wouldn't know until I tried right? I just hope I dont end up too disappointed in myself. But, I'm definitely being different and more spontaneous lately. I like it!
Also, in the process of writing this I got a notification on facebook. It was a message from a schoolmate who I hardly ever talk to. She's stunning, she's popular, and she knows who she is. And she told me that she reads my blog and looks forward to them! I really needed to hear that because every single day I question if what I'm doing is right for me and those are the things that really make me realize that I'm becoming a better person and I should like putting myself out there. This isn't a weird thing and I'm happy I'm motivating myself as well as other people. She also talked about prom. And how I'm definitely not the only one who would be going alone. I'm still really on the fence. I'm leaning more towards not going just because I don't want to be there awkward and alone. Not what I call a good time.
Time will tell.
I know this is a long blog but from the bottom of my heart, I'm feeling really good. I feel beautiful, I feel confident, and you guys are making it happen with me.
I'm SO grateful!
It's show week so I will be busy, but I will be posting when I can.
I'm absolutely in love with my mission to change!
-Alexa Starky
Haha, that girl sounds like me.. but, it probably isn't because I'm not stunning.
ReplyDeleteYOU TELL THE TRUTH GIRL. You get out there and you show them who you are! Take advantage of what you are doing! Make the best out of it! If you want to shine, shine! Because your friends support you all the way! I know I do!
-Kristen