Happy Passover.

Happy Passover to all the Jews out there. It was a fun time.
Couldn't help but feel weird though.

It was a stressful day. And I just took a leap and tried doing something I wouldn't normally do. I don't want to go into too much detail in case of people reading this. But, I took a leap of faith, and I hoped. And it drove me crazy all day and all night, seeing what would come out of it.
Nothing.
Shocker.

Yet again, blaming myself and my weight.
All throughout dinner and hanging with my family, all I thought was 'I wonder if I will have time to go to the gym..'

I've decided not to go to prom..
I will just be sad there. Alone. Feeling all pretty and dolled up for nothing. Feeling like no one wants me there. Just, not worth it.

It's been stressful for me. And I can't help but feel sad about all this.
Just figure, if I get thinner, I will be happier..

-Alexa Starky