..The 'P' Word.

I'm sick, and tired, and frustrated with this word.
This little word. It's only 4 letters. But it's everywhere! It's surrounding my life right now.
PROM!!!!

If I have to hear this word again today, I might just explode.
I really wasn't planning on going. I figure, I had such a great time at prom last year, I don't want to go again and not enjoy it. But, I've been helping people get asked, I've been hearing stories about people being asked, and I'm starting to.. idk. Want to go?

I just know all these people are being asked and going together and I just don't want to go alone.
And I mean, I've lost weight but I am really thinking that it isn't enough. I want to be asked.. But never in a million years could I imagine. I'm just not...prom material..

And I tried to make myself that way, but I don't think I've gotten there yet. It is pretty sad that being I weigh a little more, I don't think I'm good enough to be asked.. But as of right now, I don't see that happening.. Kinda sucks.

I just want prom to happen so I don't ever have to hear about it again..
Kinda down in the dumps today. Gonna go for a workout and hopefully become "Prom material" by the end of the year..
We will see.

-Alexa Starky