Bummer Summer

It has been well over a month since I've written last. I have been focused mainly on finishing summer classes and starting my new doctor experiences.
Doctor experiences you might ask?
Well yes, because as of July 4th, my insurance changed and they now offer the 1 thing I have been waiting 5 years for. Gastric bypass.
I don't know if you readers can go this far back in time with me, but, this blog started due to my interest in gastric surgery. I wanted the lap band when I was 17 and my doctor said I needed to start tracking my process, thus gave me an idea for my blog. As I started that, however, insurance denied me and I basically broke into pieces, thus starting a new mission to change that has gotten me this far.
But, I went to my meetings and I have done COUNTLESS doctor appointments the past few weeks. I have decided to not get full on gastric bypass simply because the risks are higher. And of course the fact that you cannot drink alcohol after that surgery...Hello! I'm not even 21 yet, give me a break.
I have decided to go with what is called the 'sleeve.' It is not actually a sleeve per-say but it is just simply taking out the access 90% of the stomach I don't need and not messing with my intestines or any of that other good stuff.

Since I have decided this, insurance and my doctors have a check list I need to complete full of new diets, different tests I have to do, and specific monthly visits in order to hopefully get the surgery within the next 4 months. So I have done a 345 question psych evaluation, consultations with the surgeons, nutritionists, therapists, and fitness specialists. As well as blood tests, ultra sounds, breathing tests, and more to come within the next few weeks. It's keeping me busy, and it has been incredibly hard and stressful on myself.

No one really wants to get to this point... Because it is such a massive change I'm going to see my therapist regularly and get on some anti-depressants just to be able to keep myself from going insane in the process. It is a lot to handle, this being the reason I haven't been writing or even seeing my friends...

If my friends are reading this, your patience and support is not unnoticed, I'm just not all present right now and I'm going through one of the hardest times in my life and have a specific way of coping with it. My life is changing in a matter of month and it's everything I've dreamed about, but it is a troubling time as well. Lets hope it can only go up from here. I adore you guys.

Now I have heard my share of opinions and negative comments. So, if you plan to leave one here for me, please understand I have made my choice, we have talked long and hard and I have done my research and until you walk in my shoes and see what it is like in my body, I just don't want to hear it from any of you.
 I am very excited for yet another change to start! 

So until my next big update, I'm on a strict diet with my doctors, I'm exercising at least 30 minutes a day and drink all the water humanly possible. I just don't want to lose track and I want to be the best me possible. And I think that Alexa is on its way.

Sorry the blog is long. A lot to fit in one post, and this isn't even all of it. I'll try to update more.

On to another mission to change. And still learning as I go. And I will keep going and going.
-Alexa Starky