My Movie Obsession.

I see at least 2 movies in the movie theaters a week.
I am always at the movies. It's become a hobby, and a lifestyle.

Whenever I am leaving my house, my family basically knows that I'm going to a Harkins to see a movie. It's even gotten to a point where I've started to go alone.
Whenever someone asks me why I'm going to so many movies, my answer was always 'because I want to see it.' But now I'm starting to see movies 2 and 3 times, just to see a movie.

I've figured out what it is.

I am so frustrated with everything going on in my own life, I will pay anything to just sit in a dark room and escape my life and watch another. It's my escape from school, work, studying, family, friends, love, surgery, my weight, and everything in between. I'm very frustrated.

So I go to laugh, cry, and feel for someone else for a little while.
I watch other fates change, other people fall in and out of love, die, solve problems, create problems, and find themselves. All in hope that I will do the same when I walk out of the comfort of the black room.

Film is my absolute love. And writing stories and creating someone outside of myself is my high.
I really need to figure this all out... I can't sit in a movie forever...
 

- Alexa Starky