My Realization

A year and a half I've been writing this blog. I have about 200 posts..
I have notebooks full of stories.
When I'm at the gym, I analyze my thoughts and think about how I could create a movie about them. I take scenarios and put them on paper and create new worlds based off my feelings. I think about book ideas every time I'm on an elliptical machine.
I have an online journal basically telling everyone about my world and my struggles. Putting it all out there in writing for the world to see.

I love to write. I love to inspire.
And it took an hour of lying down on a sofa talking to my therapist to realize, I'm a writer. I'm a story teller. She was practically applauding me for figuring it out. I was laughing about all my stories and notebooks full of writings and she said 'STOP LAUGHING!' You don't take yourself seriously when you laugh about something. This is a passion you have and you aren't thinking seriously about it. And she was right. When I stopped laughing and starting thinking about everything I've written and how much I've done, even in elementary school.. I love to write..

Writing down everything and making up stories has been an outlet. It saved my life. I've lost weight because I'm writing it all out.

I guess after this big rant and all the analyzing I've done, I realized, I want to write. So, after this semester I might major in journalism or english.. I can only imagine being an author or script writer..

I'm figuring it out! It's crazy!!

Life Update: I GOT MY TEST RESULTS BACK FROM THE ULTRA SOUND! No problems with my organs! They are all ok! So that's great and I don't have to get another blood test until January! YAY! I'm currently house sitting with these 2 incredible golden retrievers. It's like a total zen where I can relax and think and not be disturbed. I am loving it. SAN DIEGO IN 6 DAYS!

-Alexa Starky