It's the terror of knowing what this world is about...

I'm very frustrated...

There is too much put on my plate right now.
Work this week has put a lot on me. Work has gotten me so behind on homework, which then makes school unenjoyable. I haven't been able to go to the gym because if I ever have an ounce of free time, there is something covering it. Every single time I sit down with nothing to do (or not wanting to do anything) I just cry...

I'm crying right now...

I think it's easy to say that so far this is the hardest year of my life... And it's only February...

I'm just getting really tired of the pressure. I'm really sick of putting on a fake smile. Lately, they are all fake. I'm saying things I don't feel... I'm pretending all the time. And I just don't know what to do...