I think this is the end...
I'm not getting anywhere. I'm packed with shit. Pointless shit and I'm just not motivated anymore...
Everything is going wrong...
And I think this is goodbye...
Every single day has been a secret struggle to keep going.. I wake up angry, I go to bed crying, I get maybe 2 hours of sleep.
School pressure, work pressure, and pressure on myself is becoming unbearable.
I can't take the fake smiles anymore...
So. I'm going to take some time before I delete the blog for good, see if it maybe gets better. But, it's only getting worse.
I hate giving up...
But I'm losing faith in myself.
The support has been amazing. But when you stop listening to yourself, it's just time to let it go...
always and forever, learning as I go...
Never give up. This is but a moment in time, though longer than may be bearable, it will pass. Trust that like all life experiences, walking through the pain really does make you stronger and wiser.......just keep walking and always remember that you are loved.
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