Lily & Marshall.

.I've grown to absolutely love the show How I Met Your Mother. It's incredibly smart and it cracks me up. I watch it everyday.
It's about one of the main characters, Ted, telling his kids the whole story about how he met their mother. And he has his 2 best friends, Lily and Marshall.

They are each others soul mate. They make each other so happy. Everything they do, they do it for each other, and it's so cute.

I want a Lily and Marshall relationship one day. I'm always asking myself "what did today mean? Why did this happen? What will this bring up later?" I think the universe works in crazy ways and it brings people together and breaks people apart for a reason.

It's been a really insane 2 years. A lot of feelings come and go. There are smiles and break downs.
(I'm about to curse, Mom)
I think this all happens for a reason, the scary part is that we have no fucking idea why it's happening. And we have absolutely no idea when we will find out.

I'm working to make myself stronger and more independent. I'm working on finding myself and figuring out where I'm going. But it's so hard to really know. And I'm scared.

I guess I'm just hoping for that Lily and Marshall relationship one day, where it all kind of molds together and nothing else matters. Everything happening now will be worth it that one day. I have no idea when it's coming. It could be tomorrow, next year, 5 years, even 10 years.
I have no idea...

I just have to keep living the way I am, bring new people in, and maybe let some people go.

-Alexa Starky