1. CHEAPER!!
2. I felt like a dear in headlights all year on what I wanted to do.
3. Leaving my family seemed impossible at the time.
4. If I was constantly worrying about college and money and that part of life, I couldn't have been so motivated to change the way I have.
I know the old Alexa. I would have figured the more important thing would have been the future and not now. I would have still been crying in a doctors office seeing no results and wondering what to do.
And now I finally know what I'm doing next year. After all the thoughts of moving away, taking internships, going into every field there is, I have chosen.
Next year I will be attending Arizona State and major in theater production. Then once I get that major I hope to get my masters in theater writing. I can't believe how lucky I am that that is a major!
And it truly is thanks to this blog that I have figured it out. Thanks to this blog and thanks to my incredible family and the love from my friends I figured out that I love writing. I still love theater but I think my real passion is writing. So, I'm excited to see where all of this takes me!
I can't believe how happy I've been lately. I mean, I see a therapist. I have been for years. I mean I don't know how I could have been without her through all of this. But, the last few appointments I've had were all so happy! I had so much to tell her and talk about and everyday was so happy and all she could say was "I'm so happy for you. It's all finally coming together." And I couldn't agree more.
It's sad that a lot of my friends are going away. I mean, some are going 20 minutes away, some 2 hours, and some plane rides away. It's hard watching them all leave one by one. But I know I will always have them and I have some incredible people here with me. And I know I will meet so many more in college.
We are so grown up. But there is still so much to learn.
A new chapter in my blog begins Monday! My Mission To Change. Chapter 3. College.
-Alexa Starky
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