My sister and I made this hilarious youtube video! And I will admit, it isn't the best angle. But, man. I thought getting 120 some views in 2 days was pretty awesome. But the comments left were less then kind. They were horrible...
Currently, I'm sitting in my room, crying. I have been for about 30 minutes now. I'm crying because, I know I'm not the only one who feels like this. I'm crying because I work SO damn hard to create a better me, and people just keep talking. Running their mouths like they actually have reason. STRANGERS! PEERS! PEOPLE! People just suck.
I can't help but think, one day.....
One day I will be sitting on a couch or chair. With Ellen or some interviewer. With MILLIONS of fans watching me. With me telling my story. Crying my eyes out because this pain will never go away. Talking about how these HORRIBLE, EVIL, DISGUSTING people, who tore me up so many times.. made me SO strong. And how I became this way because of those people who shot me down so many times. All the times I was laughed at, called names, made fun of, stared at. All the painful moments that stick inside you like a drug. It all created someone who wants to make a difference. Help others. And heal people who have been beaten just like me.
I want to inspire. And tonight.. tonight just made it that much clearer on what I need to do. It's going to take a lot. And it's going to be hard to keep getting up after people metaphorically trip me a million times. But I'm going to get there.
Bullies, just watch me. Just watch.
-Alexa Starky
Lexipro,
ReplyDeleteI didn't see the comments but I know whatever horrid things said, those that say them are most often people who hate themselves and try to feel better by putting other's down.
There is no doubt that 99% of people who post anything on YouTube or any media site, are made fun of for something by the very same sick and mean people.
One of the beautiful things about you and Jaclyn, is that you both freely put yourselves out there, whether it be in person or on the internet.....you KNOW you are special and worth other's time and attention. And you really are.
YOU have a voice and I know that no matter what idiots come your way, they will NEVER be able to take that gift away.
Keep your light shining and keep sharing the beauty, fun, wisdom and especailly the strength that is YOU!
Man, I can't tell you how often I have been in that position. I have had horrible things happen to me in the past. I have no idea how I got past it, but somehow I did and I'm so much better now.
ReplyDeleteYou have inspired me so much to be better. Not just because of what you are doing with your body, but your life in general! You are an amazing person and a wonderful singer! No one can bring you down! (wicked reference)
Just forget about those people and focus on your real friends, your life and your future! You have so much working for you! Keep it up, sweety!
~ Kristen
When I first read this post I wanted to go onto youtube to post a comment on your video that would shame those terrible people. That is the difference between us. I wanted to react in anger, whereas you chose to find strength in their posts. I hope that one day I can be more like you. Whatever happens, you have to keep this blog going. You don't just provide inspiration, you show people a better way of being. Thank you.
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