NEED to focus.

I'm SUCH a people pleaser.
I know I'm you're best friend but PLEASE! I'm drowning in your problems!
I'm trying to focus on myself and keep myself sane.
I had a crazy meltdown last night. I just freaked out. Too much at one time I guess. Sat it my room listening to the same song over and over again until 3 in the morning. Sometimes all you really can do is cry..

I'm just stressed with everyone else's problems. I love helping..
But, I need help too.

I'm just afraid of being judged..

I hate knowing that this blog was made to change me for the better and I feel like I'm getting somewhere.. then it all comes to a sudden stop. It's so inconsistent. Very stressful.

I'm just trying so hard to focus and keep my mind on what really matters. It's just hard when little things push their way in front of what you really want..
I'm trying. I really am..

-Alexa Starky