Some things need a changing.

This blog isn't going to be quite as happy as the ones in the past. A lot of great and positive things have been happening lately. I have been doing a lot better. But there are always those feelings in the back of your head that things aren't all correct.

The transition from last year to this year was a DRAMATIC change. I feel like everything I was like year has diminished. I feel like my perspective and outlook on everything has completely changed. I feel like I've lost friends for this reason. I've gained a lot of friends too, but that doesn't take away from everything I have also lost.

I was just looking at pictures from last year, and I was a different person. I don't see the person in those pictures that I see in me now. It's a good thing, but it's a bad thing. I miss laughing and going out with all of my old friends. A lot of my drama friends especially. Despite how I don't always show it, I miss it. I'm just so busy with running clubs and being involved that new things and new people have hopped into my life. It's hard knowing that everything is kind of gone. Everything I knew from last year is gone.

I'm sure this is just the way life is and that this is normal to "move on" from what you know, but it still doesn't feel right.

I don't know..This is just me venting. I couldn't help but feel odd about myself looking at old pictures. I couldn't help but wonder if I like who I am today. I do, because I feel like I'm making a lot of positive changes and making new friendships and new memories. But I don't like that a lot of it isn't with the people I used to hang out with 24/7.

I just hope these people are reading this and see where I am coming from. I wanna share some of the pictures on here that I was looking at. I hope the people in these pictures know I still love them and cherish our friendship and I would never thing differently. I love you guys. I just hope you all understand I'm trying to become a new person for me, and to make me a happier human being. Not for anyone else, but me.