The difference is clear, I couldn't be happier!
I look and feel different. And the pictures make it clear. :)
Leaving for Hawaii in 1 day!
I will write back as soon as I get home!
-Alexa Starky
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
It's like magic.
The difference is clear, I couldn't be happier!
I look and feel different. And the pictures make it clear. :)
Leaving for Hawaii in 1 day!
I will write back as soon as I get home!
-Alexa Starky
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Why do we do this to ourselves?
Human nature.
It teaches us to do really crazy things.
It teaches us that we are supposed to marry someone and create a family. Enjoy every second with that family. Have heart aches along the way. Laughs make it in there as well. Gain so many memories. Make it become all you know for 18 years of your life.
Then we are taught to accept change. And to create change. We are taught to leave it behind and find something else. We are taught to be strong and not cry. We are taught to dream, but be realistic at the same time. We are taught to become our own person and gain independence.
We are taught all of this and are taught to teach others these rules one day.
The truth is, leaving scares me. Phoenix is all I know. My support is here. My incredible parents! Who love me so much and push me to be my best. My sister, who is my best friend. It's all becoming a reality. Moving away, finding a new life, leaving this one behind.
Why do we do this? Why does moving on have to include pain as well?
I'm crying while writing this. Because, who really knows what we are doing. I have no idea what I'm doing, and I figure I won't know until I get there.
I didn't know what I was doing with my weight, and I've lost the weight of a toddler so far.
I just don't know, and I figure it will come together. But, it stresses me out, knowing that this is ending soon. Everyday is my last something here.
And I can't help but cry..
Who can't cry in a time like this?..
-Alexa Starky
It teaches us to do really crazy things.
It teaches us that we are supposed to marry someone and create a family. Enjoy every second with that family. Have heart aches along the way. Laughs make it in there as well. Gain so many memories. Make it become all you know for 18 years of your life.
Then we are taught to accept change. And to create change. We are taught to leave it behind and find something else. We are taught to be strong and not cry. We are taught to dream, but be realistic at the same time. We are taught to become our own person and gain independence.
We are taught all of this and are taught to teach others these rules one day.
The truth is, leaving scares me. Phoenix is all I know. My support is here. My incredible parents! Who love me so much and push me to be my best. My sister, who is my best friend. It's all becoming a reality. Moving away, finding a new life, leaving this one behind.
Why do we do this? Why does moving on have to include pain as well?
I'm crying while writing this. Because, who really knows what we are doing. I have no idea what I'm doing, and I figure I won't know until I get there.
I didn't know what I was doing with my weight, and I've lost the weight of a toddler so far.
I just don't know, and I figure it will come together. But, it stresses me out, knowing that this is ending soon. Everyday is my last something here.
And I can't help but cry..
Who can't cry in a time like this?..
-Alexa Starky
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Feeling the Pressure.
Hawaii is in a week and 5 days.
I think I got my first ticket from a lame photo thing right after a speed reducer.
I don't feel like I'm getting results.
I'm still confused about school.
I'm confused about feelings.
I'm sad school is almost over.
I only have 1 show and 1 concert left, forever..
I'm not working out to change, but to lose myself and my thoughts.
There is just so much to think about right now..
I was at the gym today and I got to thinking. I've been in a funk ever since.
I've changed so much the past few months. Mentally mainly.
There is just something missing. Like a tiny unfilled space inside and I don't know what it is that's missing.
I just don't want to feel this way.
Just going to keep going to the gym. Try and change a bit more before Hawaii.
And maybe gain some more positivity before the end.
I'm just confused. My head is all over the place.. I just need some time I suppose.
Don't we all just need a little time?
-Alexa Starky
I think I got my first ticket from a lame photo thing right after a speed reducer.
I don't feel like I'm getting results.
I'm still confused about school.
I'm confused about feelings.
I'm sad school is almost over.
I only have 1 show and 1 concert left, forever..
I'm not working out to change, but to lose myself and my thoughts.
There is just so much to think about right now..
I was at the gym today and I got to thinking. I've been in a funk ever since.
I've changed so much the past few months. Mentally mainly.
There is just something missing. Like a tiny unfilled space inside and I don't know what it is that's missing.
I just don't want to feel this way.
Just going to keep going to the gym. Try and change a bit more before Hawaii.
And maybe gain some more positivity before the end.
I'm just confused. My head is all over the place.. I just need some time I suppose.
Don't we all just need a little time?
-Alexa Starky
Monday, March 7, 2011
Oy Vey! This weekend!
What a crazy weekend!
Parents went to Vegas for my moms late birthday present.
What does that mean??
My sister, Jaclyn, and I had the whole house to ourselves!!
Did we throw a huge party? Nope!
Did we drink behind our parents back? Nope!
Did we make funny videos and eat more junk food then we have all year?
YES WE DID!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNB-sTS1Zkc&feature=channel_video_title
Check out our first Sister Series video :)
It was a great weekend!
Lots of laughs and just being carefree. And I got to see my ex's mom for dinner and it was amazing. I miss them so much! They are like family.
Finally figured out college stuff. And I'm planning on moving to San Fransisco with my cousin in the summer!
I'm incredibly excited!
I got accepted into the Paul Mitchell Academy and I start in September.
Life is coming together and I am so excited!
Also, it's cool having someone you haven't seen in at least half a year, see the transformation happening to me. It's really great to know that I look different to others.
Life is just getting better. :)
Lets hope it keeps up!
-Alexa Starky
Parents went to Vegas for my moms late birthday present.
What does that mean??
My sister, Jaclyn, and I had the whole house to ourselves!!
Did we throw a huge party? Nope!
Did we drink behind our parents back? Nope!
Did we make funny videos and eat more junk food then we have all year?
YES WE DID!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNB-sTS1Zkc&feature=channel_video_title
Check out our first Sister Series video :)
It was a great weekend!
Lots of laughs and just being carefree. And I got to see my ex's mom for dinner and it was amazing. I miss them so much! They are like family.
Finally figured out college stuff. And I'm planning on moving to San Fransisco with my cousin in the summer!
I'm incredibly excited!
I got accepted into the Paul Mitchell Academy and I start in September.
Life is coming together and I am so excited!
Also, it's cool having someone you haven't seen in at least half a year, see the transformation happening to me. It's really great to know that I look different to others.
Life is just getting better. :)
Lets hope it keeps up!
-Alexa Starky
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Ha, I lied :)
Went to the gym today too.
I really think things are looking up for me. :)
-Alexa Starky
I really think things are looking up for me. :)
-Alexa Starky
Ah! I only have 24 days!
Oh no!
I only have 24 days until I'm in Hawaii!
Starting tomorrow (because I seriously have no time today, and I was at the gym longer than normal yesterday) I'm going to be at the gym everyday!
I really want to lose more weight before I'm in Hawaii!
So, I'm going to be there working my butt off and eating as healthy as I can so I can feel some more pride when I get to paradise!
I'm so excited!
-Alexa Starky
I only have 24 days until I'm in Hawaii!
Starting tomorrow (because I seriously have no time today, and I was at the gym longer than normal yesterday) I'm going to be at the gym everyday!
I really want to lose more weight before I'm in Hawaii!
So, I'm going to be there working my butt off and eating as healthy as I can so I can feel some more pride when I get to paradise!
I'm so excited!
-Alexa Starky
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